So I don't know if I'm not smart enough for math, but lately, it seems to me as if some advanced topics are just too unintuitive in my opinion.
For example, I have no idea what eigenvalues, jacobians or manifolds really are, and it's a similar thing with most of abstract algebra (or at least I've never been told how mathematicians came up with these kinds of concepts -I don't even know what motivated the formulation of a matrix-).
And it's not just algebra. Even though I did pretty well (intuition-wise) in one-variable calculus, I have absolutely no idea why the solutions to differential equations make sense, or the notion behind differential operators.
So, I think one of these things is going on here:
a) I'm not smart enough to gain intuition of these concepts on my own;
b) It is complicated, but possible, to understand intuitively these concepts. Problem is this educational system doesn't put too much emphasis on deep comprehension;
c) Nobody knows very well these areas of math, we just apply rules and we're deeply boggled by how far we can go with them.
Which one of these is the case? I could really use some guidance.
The answer, as you might guess, is b). But still, work hard. It is worth it! I have only very basic intuition and only in the area I am beginning to specialize in, but every time I gain a little insight and really feel it, the fun and the rush are worth it! Do lots of problems. Ask each and every question you have, multiple times, to multiple people. Compare your ideas with others. Why did they think that way? Try to really relish ways of thinking or results you find clever. Save them in your mental back pocket - not by memorizing, but by recalling how to see them in the first place. There are a million other bullet points. I can go on and on, with many examples, as I have this talk with students I teach every semester.
Math is hard. But we can all do it if we want to and if we put in Herculean effort, especially towards improving our weak points.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to try to figure out a question about very basic number theory that I should already know how to do, yet have worked on for 14 hours over the past five days with no success. I'm sure that when I solve it, I will feel very proud, and will have gained some intuition in the process.